alright its my 4th post.
i posting this post not because im sad,
but because i needed to write how i feel now.
i feel sad now.
he told her before he got his stitches
& i have to find out myself.
i really need someone to talk to now.
perhaps, loving him was the biggest mistake.
oh maybe because i was dumb.
sudden, i just didnt want to see him.
makes me think about those things he did.
you may say you wont hide things from me.
but is that the real answer?
If it isn't then i wont doubt you anymore.
but what it is? i wont want to talk to you ever again~
& i will never trust you like before.
you wont hear my cries now.
only sera&germy hears them.
the feeling is just beyond painful.
you once told me "sorry, if i have hurt me"
but now sorry may mean everything but it may nth.
perhaps everything may mean nth now.
maybe i should just give you up.
because i have failed to "protect" you.
If you really cared, then show it to me.
if not, dont even talk to me.

anyway,
i just love this song.
Its called About you now
by Sugababes.

It was so easy that night
Shoulda been strong, yeah I lied
Nobody gets me like you do

I know everything changes
All the cities and faces
But I know how I feel about you
Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down

But I know how I feel about you now
All that it takes, one more chance
Don't let our last kiss be our last
Give me tonight, and I'll show you

I know everything changes,
I don't care where it takes us
'cause I know how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how
I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

Not a day passed me by, not a day passed me by
When I don't think about you
And there's no moving on, 'cause I know you're the one
And I can't be without you

Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down (I let you down)
But I know how I feel about you now

But I know how I feel about you now
Yeah I know how I feel about you now.

you hurt me so badly.
you made me cry.

its my 3rd post of the day.
that shows how bored i am.
i really should have gone to school.
at least i have smth to do.
perhaps, i should just wake up at normally at 6 so that i can reach school by 8.
didnt really talk to him today.
cos didnt feel like.
he got 4 stitches on his leg.
because he was cycling.
therefore, he wont be going to school trm.
dont expect him to run right?
he cant even walk now.
pray hard for him to get well soon.
NehNeh&AhNeh is going to call me soon.
i really enjoy their company.
they listen to my problems, they give me advice.
i guess that is what i call a best friend.
a friend who care for me, listen to my problems & give me advice.
i want to see him.
seriously.

ps: to Mr.Mycuteboy.
i wont hide things from you.
because i love you.
i hope you wont hide things from me too.

it's my 2nd post of the day.
im so bored now.
im talkin to AhNeh, NehNeh &Audrey&xlaura.
im so freaking bored.
we talk like we have knew each other like childhood.
i want to remember this. its part of my memories.
i've been missing him today.
im still thinking whether i should go to school trm.
if i go, i will see him.
if i dont, i wont be seeing him.
alright, im currently munching on peas now.
maybe i should just go to school trm.
i guess.
talking to xlaura,sufi& joshua on msn now.
but im still bored.
someone entertain me pls.
im rotting soon.
bye.

seriously,
im missing you like never before.

hello. today didnt go to school for cca make- up. cos i couldn't wake up then germy also never go. haiz. i wander how im going to clear all my hours. i think i wont want to do make up next year cos its so boring. cant use hp. cant play music. what nonsense. abyway, im bored now. someone entertain me now. 1 year to my bday. haha. im retarded. bye.

im effing bored now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

boy,
i really do miss you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDdd.
the day is finally here. im 1 year older now. i promise there will be a new me. & i will be more mature.
anyway,
hello. i've been having very bad stomach ache these few days & no appetite to eat. thinking about him makes me fell _ _ _. i always feel that way. do you guys think im dumb?or stupid? bearing some much of suffering just for him. perhaps if you really love someone, you must be willing to do anything just to be with him. alright enough of this. so went to school today at 9 but went to help teacher first so reported late for cca make- up. but ms fida was good enough to let me sign in at 9am. manage to complete my maths holiday homework by today. actually i did some ytd with the help of kailrence doggy:)his quite good in maths i must say. back to the point. so went to hub there to meet amanda, kailrence, aaron tay& kahming??? (i dont even know them except the first 2). they went to cut their hair at this place. forgot the name alrdy. yupp. then was suppose to have lunch but didnt. then kailrence they all so bad sia. go pangseh me & amanda. then amanda very sad. so come my house lol. ate lunch at my house. then we baked a cake. then she left to meet kailrence. my bro was crapping all the way. i think thats the way he attract girls. so they plan for ltr i cancelled. germy didnt come for make- up today. i was damn bored. so went to play uno with fiona they all. & pictures from my party on saturday. but its not all. will post the rest some other time. bye.

PHOTOS:DDDDDDDDDDDDDdd;

the love we share. xD loves loves
us.girls:) & boy, i dont have any eyes:DDDDDDDDDdd
xlaura,hilmi,audrey. all so cute:)

thanks for all the memories you gave me.

its more than just memories.

they are BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES.

i love you guys no matter what happens:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDdd

loves. loves.

to MR MY CUTE BOY:

i really love you.

hello. yeah, today went to school for cca make- up. woke up @ 7.30am. went to school but didnt report cos i went to find my dearest cassendra:] yes, i do love her the way i love him. she's just so cute. anyway, stayed in school till 5.played game most of the time. then suddenly, fiona ask me to go with her somewhere. so went to help nashrul lock his bike in school then they went out. cos if one person take bike then very troublesome. played the usual games like soccer, netball & tennis. but today, i was so surprised to see kailrence coming for cca make- up. was msging him again. as usual, he made me again. talking to joshua & hilmi on the phone about trm's plan. so we will be going to somewhere to play soccer. but not me. i will just be there watching. i trying to find some ppl to go with me. i guess i trust him cos he said he trusted me. perhaps thats why. after make- up. walk home with fiona & kailrence. but then we went to the exercise corner for a while then went home. sudden, kailrence was such a good doggy[ sorry amanda for treating your bf like that] he did everything i told him to do. haha. he's such a good dog:) anyway, he's still msging me for some reason. hopefully, trm i'll be able to reach school before 8 like today. its my bday trm. haha. got to go sleep now. i want to sleep forever & wait for my prince to come. lol. bye

it 2.04 am in the morning & im not sleeping cos i slept in the afternoon. anyway, didnt go to church today cos i was late alrdy so went to main church to walk around. he msged me at 7.50am today. again, he made me angry. as he talk to me, i found out about smth. smth bad which made me cried. he said he like her. & that person is one of my good friends.it has been on my mind since ytd @ 8.30. what i wished was all about him. went to taka for lunch then went to Giordano to collect smth. ate CJLMXLB. then went to buy things. he kept on msging me. he was so worried about our friendship. but what comes after thet would be ____. i kept saying "do you think i thought that way?" then he came clean with me. then say say say then he told me that he is getting a new hairstyle. saw it, it's nicer then the one before. im starting to miss a class, the class which is called 2A3'07. i've meet great ppl, i've meet bad ppl. & last of all, i want to say thanks to all these ppl. for making my life meaningful&meaningless. hahaha. yeah! meaningless.

These are ppl which i wouldnt forget. what they have done will be sealed in my heart as beautiful memories. & YES!i do love them alot.

I loved this guy.
He's an ang mo. & he is damn cute.
I thought he was different from the other guys.
That's why i like him.
I've known him since 28 December'05.[orientation]
i suppose he was there cos i saw someone like him.
His in my class.
i've known him for 2 long pianful years alrdy.
& he is called Joshua Adam:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDdd

I have known this girl for 2 whole years.
but it seems like i haven known her since childhood.
She is one of me bestest friend.
We do almost everything together; going for concerts & stuff.
She was there for me when i needed her, she hear my cries.
& she is called GERMAINE PHUA:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDdd

Here, she is short & black. but cute too.
She is nice but she just got to be less sensitive.
She keeps on saying fcuk you&attitude.
She is one of my besties.
& she is Laura Wong a.k.a xlaura:D

Another one, she does things as slow as a tortoise.
even tough, but i still love her.
she is just so blur. i guess that's her nature.
i have known her since sec 1.
She is Shermane Wang:]

And here, i've known this person just recently.
She is pretty.
She makes me feel _____.
i think i know her for about 2 months plus.
Yes! i do love her.
& she is Amanda Tock a.k.a mrs yapppppppp:DDDDDDDDDDDdd

And here, i have known her since sec 1 too.
Although, we have hated each other most of the time.
to think about it, i guess i miss her.
she loves to bhb.
& she is colleen Chua:)

And here, they are 2 different ppl but thay have alot of things in common.
I have known them since the beginning of my sec 2 life.
they are nice but pest at times.
their bday's are separated within 3 days.
they are Seraphina Poh & Chew Yusheng.

And here, they are my god siblings but one is my long- lost cousin.
our chracter just click together.
they are the ones who were there for me. always.
the gossips. the laughter. the tears.
they are Ivy Chen&Joshua Tang.

And lastly, its my class.
they have a positive attitude to learning sometimes. i guess.
i love them the way they are.
they are perfect in my eyes.
it is made up of many different unique people.
the jokers.
& the class is called 2A3'07.

i just want to thank you guys for everything.
the smile you guys put on my face, the tears that i shed cos of you& the love you showered on me. & it my turn to shower my love on you guys. haha:]
got to go sleep now. have to go to school for cca make- up trm.

sorry if i have left some of you guys out. im rather busy now.

1 more day to my bday:D

yes! i do love him alot.
bye.

i'll be waiting for you.
no matter what it takes

hello. my party was so fun larh. but i have to say sorry too, to those i have neglected & talk to the rest. germy, joshua adam, ellaine, xlaura, laura lim, sera, yusheng, boonkai, shermane, hilmi, hafiz, nashrul, jazzrel, audrey,. ivy& joshua tang came plus my relatives about 30 came. jordan, boonkai&hilmicame to my house at 10 am today. they came frm the land shop. they said they ton? at the land shop then came to my house straight away. they woke me larh. they were shouting my name like crazy ppl. anyway, my maid was the one who open the door for them. after that, matthew came. they download audition so at least they can play smth. went to prepare food while they watch movie. then jordan & boonkai went to sleep cos they were so tired. so hilmi & matthew continue playing lol. then 4 plus, everyone started coming. they were playing poker. CHEAT! haha. that game. he came at 5 plus. cos he showered at the school before coming otherwise he will be so late. the malay boys had nth to do except to watch football channel larh. we were suppose to play bling mice larh but didnt cos everyone wasnt cooperating. so all went to the third floor to watch tv larh. it was so hot. everyone was snatching for the fan. but some went to my room cos the air- con was on. sera,yusheng&laura lim went to find jingyee i think then was suppose to cime back but didnt. wtf larh.we were waiting for them larh to cut cake. we were celebrating 3 ppl's bday. then after we ate, my uncle was talking to the malay boys about soccer. then i introduce them to my uncle larh. then when it came to joshua's turn, my uncle was saying"SO YOU ARE THE ONE ARH?!" then hilmi they all said so you are the one arh. i was damn paiseh larh. but it was fun. they were talking about soccer all the way, showing off soccer skills like mad ppl. & i think they are playing with my uncle soccer this tuesday. i need someone to accompany me. shll look for someone now. i was sad because he was flirting, i was happy because he could sense that i was angry & he msg me after that when everyone was gone to apologise. somehow or rather, i was damn pissed then i scolded him for nth, perhaps it was just mood swings. he said it was a guys natural instinct & he couldnt helped it. was msging till now but still msging. omg my bill is going to be so high. too bad hafiz came for a short time, if not we will be having more fun.its 3 more days to my bday. bye.

hello. omg today was the last day of school. & im sooooooooooooo sad. i dont want holidays. i want school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!trm will be bday party. lots of ppl will be coming, but mostly frm my class. ended school at 10.40. mrt- ed to city hall with hannah, shermane & germy. hannah went to buy skinny jeans at peninsular. she bought black only. the guy was sooooo irritating, he kept on persuading her to buy the white one too. he was telling us that he got our size so that we will buy, but we did not. walk back to raffles city. ate at out of the pan. the food was so nice:] forgot to take class photo cos everyone wanted to go for recess. yupp. walk walk then went back to amk. went back to school for make- up session while the rest went back home. stayed till 6 then went with jazreel to hawker to eat ice:)today was the most enjoyable session cos we could play at the UG hub. played soccer, tennis & did passing. it was damn fun larh. hafiz, nashrul & michel was like crazy ppl running around, trying to get the ball but in the end we still lost to the 2e1 ppl. but we still had fun:]its 4 more days to my bday. bye

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR TAN & MUMMY!:D
i cant find a to start. haiz. im feel so sad now. trm's the last day of school. & its ending early. real early. anyway, today was normal lessons again. but the last 30 mins was collecting of report books. stayed till 6 FOR CCA MAKE- UP.decided to do elective geog, O lvl maths & A maths. its going to be stressing haiz. since i've chosen this route, i think after i graduate frm peirce perhaps i'll be going to shatec or maybe some other cooking school in australia. but i cant bear to cos all my memories all lies here. beautiful memories; sad memories. smsing him now. he's just so cute. 5 MORE DAYS TO MY BDAY. BYE.

hello. im so depress now. i feel that i have trusted the wrong people & i just realise now. i trust too easily. im just a pathetic freak. i cant even find a person to trust fully to share my secrets with. oh well, went to school today. had briefing on streaming. im offered O lvl maths& A maths. then germaine shouted lynmay touch joshua's hand when i didnt even. we just bump into each other when he was on the way back to his seat.he's feeling upset now about his results. kind of worry for him. he has problems with his dad. stayed back for cca make up again. was damn sian. nth to do. stayed til 6. then walk home with ellaine. to peiyen; i no longer know you like before. dont call my name anymore. its useless. he just a useless freak. i told you being with him will only get you into trouble. & see what happen today? continue being with him, i have nth to say to you. dont even talk about friendship. i dont want school to end. i want to go to school!!!!!!!!!!!!!6 days to my bday. im so not looking forward to it. 2 more days & there wont be anymore 2A3. 2 more days & there wont be anymore school. 2 more days & i wont be able to see him everyday.2 more days & i wont be in the same class as him. why do we have to cherish things when we are about to loose them? i dont want it to be like that. from the starting of this holiday, i'll be making lots of sacrifices in order to do well for next year. i start by brushing up my studies for the pass 2 years. followed by, browsing through the textbooks of the subs. that i'll be taking next year. i promise i will pay attention in class next year & study hard & not go out so often, stay home & study.bye

hello. went to the black eyed peas concert with pre- show by the click five ytd, with my sis. it was so nice. i saw the five click face to face. didnt take their autograph cos the que was damn long. bought 3 black eyed peas shirts, 2 of the same[one for germy]& one other design. wanted to buy the click five one but no money. going for linkin park's concert with ivy. anyway, went to school today. slack all the way. went through exams papers again. i hate the marker that marked our anglish paper. mark also mark wrongly. stayed back for cca make-up again, till 5.20. i hate that gang of ppl. they just have no life. they just dont know what's the impression they give on others. its fine if they are the only ones cos i dont even like them. sudden, she also so close to them. you were not just a friend to me, you were one of my bestest friend who were there for me when i need someone to talk to. perhaps, i have no longer known you like before. & what i saw was just the outer side of you. maybe im just unluckly. i dont mean to hurt you by saying this but its what i feel.i dont want to end the school year like this. i really want to remember the past 2 years. the good stuff & the bad stuff. it means alot to me. the laughter that you guys shared with me:] the tears that i have shed. how glamours ou guys look. the fun we all had throughout the years we had. i really enjoyed it, im sure you guys enjoyed it too. saying each others' parents name; the twist turn, link them to smth else:] making our teachers go cazy& complain to ong then kena hold back. i guess thats what our class enjoy doing most:] i want the class to promote together. how nice would it be to stay together for 5 years. the bond between each one of us. it seems like we have known each other since childhood. i think the last time we can experience this, i think it will be my bday party. i've got lots of things to say, but i have no mood to say it now. im depress. but he is coming for my bday, so why should i? perhaps my emotional side is surfacing. i want to scream all my troubles out. its just so disturbing.my life, my pain. i kinda of hate my life, too much of pain the bear. its 7 more days to my bday. bye.

Yes!i do love you.

hello.
just came back frm school.
went to j8 to collec the tickets for tonight's concert but couldnt:( so going to indoor stadium to collect on the spot.
today was just going through the exam scripts. there were some mistakes tough but it couldnt be changed.
payed back hrs today again. so sian.
going for black eye peas concert ltr with my sis. its just pure excitment:]
too bad she isn't going lol.
its 8 more days to my bday.
bye

hello. finally went to church today, after the pass few weeks. anyway, after church. went to IKEA. bought lots of stuff for my room. went to see cars after cos my mother wanted to change her car. so after seeing a few modals. they decided to buy the new C class. gave a deposit of $10000. omg. after that went to paragon. for bday dinner as my mum, grandama& my bday fall in the same month which is october. so its was a big celebration. bought 2 cake. it was rather small lurhhhhhhh. dinner was at golden palace. it was sooooooo good. manage to catch up with my cousin:] havent seen her for quite some time. gtg now. 9 more days to my bday:]. bye

hello. i shall blog about today & ytd. im rather depressed now adays. perhaps i just dont want school to end because if school ends, i wont be able to see everyday. & i just found out that i wont be in the same class as him & GERMY& the rest. im 9th in class, 19th in the class& he's 44th in the level.

anyway, went to school ytd. had student forum, talent time& check results. when i saw my results, i guess i kinda of regretted not preparing early enough for my exams. when he saw he results, his face changed. for the sad sad sight. i was for myself & him. talent time was a failure.

today went to school for make up cca. started frm 9, ended at 5. manage to clear quite some hrs tough:] im so pround off my self:] haha. 12 more days to my bday. bye

hello. im happy today cos i can take O lvl maths & Add maths next year:] but im not sure if i can opt for my 7th sub. which is F&N. mr ong said he will let me take F&N next year cos he say that i love to bake. aiyarh, just hope i can promote to sec3N. but not in the worst class. if i get into the wrost class then i die liao. anyway, we played soccer today. we owned 2e3, which is supposed to be the best class. the score was 3 - 0.:] that was the only match we won tough the other matches was either a tire or a lost. our class was losing soccer all the way so hilmi & joshua wanted to play then our team will have the 2 of them plus another 2 ppl. but hafiz say cannot so too bad:( if they played then we sure win one larhhhh. we tired with 2e1. the rest we lost. i think are better at frisbeeeee & boys are better at soccer. i want to play volleyball. but only the sec1s could. haiz. our class frisbeee sux. after school, had to stay back cos of my cca. i havent been going for my cca thats why. me & germy has 150hrs to complete by the end of the year. wanted to start paying back the hrs today but i was lazy. perhaps going for the cca regularly is better than paying back the hrs at the end of the year. i think i have to join art club before i get many many demerit points. cos mdm foong said that next year they will give demerit points & we still got to pay back hrs. & it will be 300hrs instead of 150hrs. it was 40hrs last year. then this year, suddenly shoot up to 150hrs. i rather pay back more hrs than get demerit poits. trm got to start bringing my art materials to school as i'll be drawing as a form of paying back the hrs. i was like omg. i prefer baking at home than staying in school drawing lurhhhhh. anwya i've got no mood to blog now. &i may not have the time to blog the next few weeks. its 10 days to my bday party& 13 days to my bday. bye.

hello. second time blogging for the day. went to thomson plaza just now to buy some stuff from popular&ntuc. oh well. saw alot of sec 4 seniors. i saw big khairul, hui shan& i think her stead???????& more. came back around 6? then bath again eat dinner, watched abit of tv then now blogging again:]haha. day by day pass very quickly. & now its the last few days of the school term. i dont want holidays! i rather stay in school & slack. its so much better. aiyarh dont want to say alrdy larhhhh. i feel like killing myself now. & to him. i understand why so i wont ask you that qns again. it's just a waste of time. no time for other stuff. but i hope you can come. anyway, its 11 days to my bday party& 14 days to my bday. bye.

hello. today went to school. as usual, there was prefect duty:( so boring. but today we played tresure hunt. omg. its so lame. if they want to have games then create better one larhh. not ending up to snatch stuff._. my group manage to get the envelop although its was suppose to be ours. haha. cos they other group ppl dont dare to take so i took it then ran aroud the school like a mad woman. omg. got back my results for EOY buy its not the final results.
Here are my results:
*English
Paper 1- 35/ 60
Paper 2- 34/ 60
Total- 69/120
*Chinese
Paper 1- 15/ 60
Paper 2- 21/60
Total- 36/120
Maths
Paper- 1 45/60
Paper- 2 28/40
Total- 73/100
Science
Section A- 26/40
Section B- [chem/physics]- 12/30
Section C- [Bio]- 18/30
Total- 56/100
History
40+/ 100
Geography
69/100
D&T
44/100
overall i think i did very badly for all my papers. i thought i will do better than did tough. but as least i pass my science this time:]14 days to my bday.ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhyeahhhhhh:] its party time. bye.

its just so depressing. day by day past. & she is geting hurt every moment. she such a good friend. but the thing is that i cant find a way. skip tuition today. i hate chinese tuition. shannen's coming over ltr i haven't bought the ingredients yet. going to cab there now. 15 more days to my bday.bye.

hello. its 1.44am in the morning & im still awake talking to yusheng& laura lim. i still worried about her. i want to help her but i dont know how. & 15 days to my bday:]. bye.

hello. didnt go to church today cos went to centrepoint to buy alot of stuff as there is sales. anyway bought 3 pairs of tongs($80), a food processer($300), a mixer($800), a melon baller($20), 3 shirts from GAP($40 each), 2 belts from GIORDANO($60&$30), jeans from GIORDANO($59), jeans from levis($129),shorts from esprit($60), new setsheet($250), pillow($69)& quilt($150). total cost about $2000. haha. cost my mum a bomb. mostly for my bday present:] bought donut factory too:] bow 2 box of 6 & 2 box of 12:]im worried for her. & im depressed. he is just so _______. i think i scared him away. oh well. what to do? talking to laura lim & retard now on the phone. i want to sleep now& 16 days to my bday:]. bye

this is my second time blogging for the day. IM REALLY DEPRESS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'VE GOT NO HOPE ANYMORE! anyway, went orchard just now then came back. was suppose to meet germy just now BUT MY DAD DIDNT ALLOW:( slept for 4 hours just now. cos i didnt want to be awake. like now, if im awake then i'll be thinking about him. & thinking about him makes me feel depress i dont know way but yeahh. she ask him again. & the ans is still no. how come?! i really regretted knowing him. its just so torturing! i dont feel like talking about him anymore. perhaps germy is right. being a silent lover is so much better than getting hurt all the time. talking to germy now. on the phone.17 more daysto my bday:]. bye.

hello everyone. just woke up. im so tired larh. i want to sleep & never wake up ever again. perhaps i need my prince to come then i will wake up:Di kinda off feel like im living in a dream. haha. its just feel so weird lurhhhhhh. anyway, going to orchard ltr. to buy some stuff. haha. my bro is going crazy! he screams like a mad dog. i hate him! lazy to blog now. & 17 more days to my bday:] bye.

hello, bloggin the second time of the day. talking to germy now on the phone. im not in the best of mood so dont pissed me off further. just came back from united sq. went there for dinner. ate soup restaurant. couldnt finish all the food tough. went to popular. bought 3 more cooking book:D quite good larhhhhh. but quite ex. 5 bucks each. bought a new speaker for the com, a mini cute crab LCD screen& the nitendo game. the one that cost $ 600 plus. my dad bought all of them for my bday& i'll be getting a new mixer/ food processer:D from my mum for my bday. this is the best year:D get a new hp, mini9 LCD screen, food processer/ mixer, new speakers, crumpler bags, baking equipment like apron, cookie cutters & more.& money:Dhaha. well i want to sleep noe. damn tired. bye. remember 18 days to my bday:]

HELLO EVERYONE! IM IN A GOOD MOOD TODAY:D cos he is going i suppose. anyway, just came back form school. today was sooo good. we played games the whole time. haha. gave out my invitations today. there wasnt enough. so gotta print more. lol. germy didnt come today. i dont know whats up with her lately. Malay pupils could go home earlier @ 10. 30am? while the rest stay till 12,.15 for the survey. went to look for mr ong cos of pingxx. next week then she can take her hp back. today was also graduation day for the sec 4&5s. it was quite nice. now using com. i want to bath now. & 18 days to my bday:] & does ppl with my invitation card pls let mr know if you are coming.thanks. bye.

HELLO EVERYONE! just came back from my stay at my aunts house. Lucy is sooooooooooooo cute, just like him:D she is soooo funny larhhhhh. anyway, i cooked carbonara today for my uncle. it was quite successful except the part when the egg overcooked. went to IKEA this morning for breakfast. my uncle bought me 2 set of apron & oven mittens. one is blue strips & the other is brown strips. haha. it quite nice larh. i mean the design is quite interesting. its adjustable . so it can be long, it can be short. it was quite nice larh the stay. went to SAFRA with lucy & the rest. went to swim, play bowling & arcade:] i should have ask germy & the rest but i doubt they want to go tough. went to eat chicken cutlet at paya lebar air force school. it so good:) picked up my invitation card. it nice i must say for a free service. lol. will be given out my bday invitations trm. so everyone, keep a look out:] haha. & i love mrs yau. she is so nice. ytd she called me after dinner. she called to tell me that i did very well for my maths paper 1. cos mr cheng told her that i did very well, so she called. she is so funny larhhhh. we talked for quite a while. she said she's going to invite me for a play soon. haha. then she told me that she loves teaching my class cos when she teaches our class at least we understand what she is teaching lol. & there's smth else i realise after we put down the phone. shant say it. got to go bath now. i feel so sticky. & there's school trm:D yeappy! bye. & not to forget 19 days to my bday. yeapp.

MY BLOG is dying NOW. i didnt know why i even ask germy to help me start this blog. i shouldnt have wasted her time. she could have used those time to study. i just feel so bad tough. wouldnt it be nice if the world we live in was just a dream? we get what we want & we can stop things from happening? or even control & read other peoples' minds? & we need not feel bad about what have happened. wouldnt it be nice? its just so depressing. perhaps living in this world is a torture. sometimes you treat someone as a very good friend, but in return. they treat you like a normal friend. oh well, some ppl just dont have luck. anyway, im going to stay at my angmo aunt's house & teach my grandma how to cook pasta:] its going to be fun! but i wont be able to use the com then. haiz... i want to change my blogskin to that spongebob one. but i just dont know how. lol. someone help me. please:] got to go bath alrdy. my uncle's coming to bring me to my aunt's house.bye & remember my birthday is 20 days time.haha:]

HELLO! today was the last paper for EOY:] I TOTALLY SCREWED D&T. i didnt do the qns on SCAMPER. lol. anyway, today was "late"for school.he came earlier than me so i didnt send him the song. after the exam walked to hub cos he wasn't at the bus stop so there was no meaning for me to go there, i wanted to see him. i just found out that my brother has seen him on the bus a few times when he was going home. oh well, not like it was me who saw him on the bus. haiz. i want to go to school , i DONT WANT HOLIDAYS.haha. i wonder if he is free on that day tough. but i hope he is. well, trm & thursday there's no school so im going to my aunt's house to collect my bday invitations so that i'll be able to give them out by friday and get the response in time. countdown to my bday: 21 more days.bye.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERMY!

I LOVE YOU!:] HAHA.

hello. sorry for not blogging the past few days as my Internet was down:[ well, today was maths paper 2, it was quite an average paper tough. the last part for the graph was a disaster.i totally screwed up. jordan was getting ans from me & joshua cos the 3 of us were sitting together.lol. germy almost got a 0 from borrowing calculator from pingxx. her's ran out of battery out of a sudden for no reason but good thing it came back on. after exam they went to my house to celebrate germy's bday:] made strawberry shortcake but i made it twice cos the first time the shortcake wasn't right. i forgot to brush some milk on the top. so i repeated the steps & i remembered to brush the milk. had pasta but there wasn't enough so we ordered pizza.cut cake but there was not candle:(going to decide with my mum what to have for my party ltr when she come back. now studying D&T. its the last paper & im free to go. but i will start worrying about my results.haiz... i really want to do O lvl maths, A maths & F&N next year. its just soooooo stressing. i stress myself also cannot, i dont stress also cannot. haiz... i really dont know what to do. anyway, im going to visit my grandma&my angmo cousin:] before going to SAFRA to play pool, swim, cycle& more this wednesday. anyone want to come? well, got to go study for D&T, dont want to fail. bye.

just came back from GERMY'S "birthday party".lol. anyway today went to meet xlaura at hub @ 9.30 then cab to queensway to buy his jersey. was suppose to meet laura lim too but she was busy sleeping. waited for the shop to open at 11. then walk many rounds cos laura wanted to buy beat as in the one for netball for someone. cab to PSA building to meet the rest. ate at the Japanese restaurant there. food was good there but her mother was serving us. after that wen to vivo to take train to summerset. went orchard for about 2 hours then shermane's mother send us home. im so tired. i going to sleep now. bye.

HELLO; i just woke up from 14 hrs sleep. without dinner tough. sleep from 5pm- 7am.couldnt sleep anymore. so woke up. got 3 missed call & 3 msges. 2 calls from from efdim? & 1 from someone else. 1 msg from efdim? 1 from faiz, always ask me to download song for him.& last msg from tortise. lol.anyway, going to meet both the lauras' at hub at 9.[i hope they remember.] then go to queensway cos xlaura need to buy smth from there & im trying to find the jersey for him. its suppose to be his bday present.haha. after that we are going to meet germaine & the rest at PSA building. so got to wear nicely lol. lazy to blog le. im so hungry. actually not exactly. lol.byebye.

i screwed my science paper today.
i lost 9 marks for physic/chenistry part liao.
couldnt concentrate at all.cos of jordan they all. co noisy!
keep on chop here chop there. then azman her azman there!
so irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i sure fail science, chinese&history.
going to sleep now.
damn tired.
byebyebyebye

lalallalalalalal
i just woke up from a 5 hours sleep.lol.
anyway todays's maths paper was quite okay except for a few qns.
he didnt finish 5 qns.
went home after the paper.
cab- ed home. bathed then meet germaine, ellaine,tortise& pingxx at hub.
bought bbt.study awhile then went home.
took 262 with ellaine.
got to study now.
bye byebyebyebye.
dont wanna fail science this time.

im dead larhhhhh.
i totally screwed up today's history paper.
i didnt manage to finish the last part of the last essay qns.
i was practically daydreaming with germaine.
she didnt do anything for half an hour.
as for me, after every sentence i wrote i get distracted then i'll look at him or look somewhere else.
today, jordan wasnt that bad tought but it was still bad.
he took of his shoe and showed off his smelly socks.
then when mam yeong & mr rahim was collecting the scrips, he and hilmi started it again.
jordan: azman.....
himi:chop[action]
me: shut the fcuk up larhhhh the both of you. one day dont say each others parents name, will die arh?
jordan: fun whattttt..
hilmi: shut up larhhh chop chop chop:]
me: [laughing all the way till the end].
went to j8 for breakfast and xlaura went to re- pierce her ear.
walk walk then went home le.
took 88 to hub then changed to 262:]
saw that bich again.waiting for 86.
i hate her. i hate the sight of her. i hate her voice.i hate her character.i hate the way she talks.
after all, i only have one thing to say. I HATE HER TO THE CORE!
having maths tuition ltr at 7.
i want to get A1 for my maths.
god, pls help me:]
got to go study le.
byebyebye.

hey; back blogging for the second time of the day.

anyway i want to make a correction to my post this afternoon.

you guys mean those 3!

not the rest.

to germy,pingxx, shermane.

sorry to the 3 of you.

i kap your phone cos i was damn pissed.

hope you guys wont be mad at me.

really sorry.

& germy, call me when you see this.

i've got somth important to tell you.

call xlaura in too.

it concerns her too.

thnks.

bye.bye.bye.bye.bye.bye.

should i go, or should i not...should i go, or should i not?....

anyway today's post gonna be short.

i hate you guys! i hate you guys for treating me like dirt!

i not for you guys to be made fun of!

and im not you guys target either!so dont make me your target!

im not in the mood now. dont blame me for saying this.you may have hurt someone one way or another & you may not have realise. you yourself said its good to be observant.

but...

i've got nth to say about you.

i promise myself & him that i let these things get into my way especially now.

if you guys still treat him as a friends & want to talk to me then talk after EOY are over.

if not, dont even bother.