alright its my 4th post.
i posting this post not because im sad,
but because i needed to write how i feel now.
i feel sad now.
he told her before he got his stitches
& i have to find out myself.
i really need someone to talk to now.
perhaps, loving him was the biggest mistake.
oh maybe because i was dumb.
sudden, i just didnt want to see him.
makes me think about those things he did.
you may say you wont hide things from me.
but is that the real answer?
If it isn't then i wont doubt you anymore.
but what it is? i wont want to talk to you ever again~
& i will never trust you like before.
you wont hear my cries now.
only sera&germy hears them.
the feeling is just beyond painful.
you once told me "sorry, if i have hurt me"
but now sorry may mean everything but it may nth.
perhaps everything may mean nth now.
maybe i should just give you up.
because i have failed to "protect" you.
If you really cared, then show it to me.
if not, dont even talk to me.

anyway,
i just love this song.
Its called About you now
by Sugababes.

It was so easy that night
Shoulda been strong, yeah I lied
Nobody gets me like you do

I know everything changes
All the cities and faces
But I know how I feel about you
Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down

But I know how I feel about you now
All that it takes, one more chance
Don't let our last kiss be our last
Give me tonight, and I'll show you

I know everything changes,
I don't care where it takes us
'cause I know how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how
I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

Not a day passed me by, not a day passed me by
When I don't think about you
And there's no moving on, 'cause I know you're the one
And I can't be without you

Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down (I let you down)
But I know how I feel about you now

But I know how I feel about you now
Yeah I know how I feel about you now.

you hurt me so badly.
you made me cry.