this is my second time blogging for the day. IM REALLY DEPRESS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'VE GOT NO HOPE ANYMORE! anyway, went orchard just now then came back. was suppose to meet germy just now BUT MY DAD DIDNT ALLOW:( slept for 4 hours just now. cos i didnt want to be awake. like now, if im awake then i'll be thinking about him. & thinking about him makes me feel depress i dont know way but yeahh. she ask him again. & the ans is still no. how come?! i really regretted knowing him. its just so torturing! i dont feel like talking about him anymore. perhaps germy is right. being a silent lover is so much better than getting hurt all the time. talking to germy now. on the phone.17 more daysto my bday:]. bye.